||[Mar. 26th, 2006|09:56 pm]
[private, late Sunday morning]|
I can't believe it's been a year.
Or that I forgot. I had to look up what the day was, exactly.
Anyway. I got a bunch of really stupid comedies from the video place, and piles of junk food, and I figure if we sit up all night maybe we can duck the nightmares just for once. Since they've been getting worse, and I don't think either of us have slept the night through in a month, and I'm to the point where I'll count staying up all night a success, if it just meant not waking up from him crying or screaming or something.
He was doing really good, but the closer the anniversary...
I don't think he's realized that I'm not spending so much time at work because I need to, but because I need the quiet there to be able to deal with him. And it's not that I don't want to. I'm just so tired, and it's just so hard to watch this.
I'm out of ideas. I just hope this is enough, for tonight. I don't know what else to do.